Back by popular demand hee hee

Let me just catch you up.. the last two women I dated broke up with me because I deserve better... um ya did you catch that. I DESERVE BETTER!!!! Since when is that a reason to break up with someone.. Like really?? WTF!!! Any way I do kind of get where my ex is coming from.. It is still BS but less BS as the girl I was dating..
It is kind of hard to not get in your head when two people use the same reason to break up with you.. OK what so I should be a lying ass hole who is 100% selfish and just doesn't give a shit... that's not me!! I do give a shit.. I think being there for someone and being able to give yourself to someone is the bravest and hardest thing someone can do...
Anyway.. now I am back in single girl mode and having a great time. My sisters are just amazing they teach me about myself everyday. They know the truth about me. my real core self..
Jessica is a new women now however.. and as much as my sisters know about me they don't know the new different me.! As I don't know the new them. For those of you who don't know we lost our mother almost 8 months ago.. we were all very very close to her which consequently changed us all from the core..
So the new me is stronger and more confident I have this deep belief that she is in me and it makes me better!! So in the last month I have let myself free.. The best example of this is girls weekend were look out people Jessica went crazy! I had more fun than I have had in so damn long and hung out with the coolest girls ever!!!!!!!
The week after revealed that I had made a life long friend someone amazing who I could talk to about everything and trust with anything.. She has become one of my favorite people to call and hang out with.. I have amazing people in my life My sisters of coarse! Monica my BFF like 15 years strong hell yeah... I have 2 ex girlfriends who are still very important parts of my life! I love you all!!!! It is still kind of nice to be creeping up on 30 and still be able to make a friend.. That is such a lost art with adults.. I just want to say to my new friend.. Thank you! You have been awesome and I am really happy I meet you!


so yeah that's what is new.. I have Therapy on Thursday so you all can expect another post :)
loves Jes

P.S. MAMA I miss you every day! I ache for you every minute.. wish you were here! love you!!