GROWTH

I yelled at my sisters the other day.. well it was like 3 weeks ago.. but so very out of character for me to be confrontational.. and to my sisters of all people..
My therapist Alison said it was growth... I hate confrontation.. I don't deal with my issues. she said I put everything in a little box and put it away as a defence and deal with things in when i can.. problem is somethings I never get to.. there is so much i haven't dealt with and ever since mama died I feel like Pandora's box has opened up!!
All the little boxes are open and I'm over whelmed by the pain of my entire life.. even the things that really don;t matter now are being brought to the surface and I'm starting to realize how I got where I am and why I am the person I am...
I have relied on my mother so much in my adulthood that I never really grew up.. And now I am being catapulted into adulthood without a net.. I know I am a strong person I am my mama... I can over come anything but its shocking to be in your safe place and then have it ripped away.. Its been 6 months and it feels like yesterday!

MAMA THOUGHT.. mom would say listen to Alison!!! Grow up and be the woman she raised me to be.. (however my mom would have used different words.. most of which would be swear words lol..)

I love you mom..

PS what do you think about Mindy??? I wish so much I had your opinion 0n that.. I keep thinking I hear you when I'm with her.. I feel like you like her for me even tho its a complicated situation!! But if you wanted to like tell me in a dream that would be good to lol!!

I love you mom! MUAH