fuck

November 2nd 2008 Julie Ann Romano died... Jessica Brown has not been the same since.. I did not cry at your funeral. I have spent months denying and pretending.. you are not gone you are not gone you are not gone... today was normalish washed the car went to football hung out with the girls ( we bairly talked about you again.. I dont think we can handle the reality of this yet) went to bed and for some reason relived november 2nd 2008... aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck for some reason tonight when i tell myself you are not gone i know it is a lie
i cant breathe i cant see from crying i cant breathe .. your not gone.. fuck

I wanted to find pictures where we looked alike.. i got 4 pics of me and the scrapbook of u.. Carly is starting to look so much like you! its amazing :) I found a few where you and I are like twins.. Kaysie looks like you to believe it or not :) fuck

51 really this is bullshit I am so fucking angryaaaaahhhhh
its not right its not fair oh my god is this realfuck is this real i cant breathe

i dream about you your face is so clear in my mind but it always flashes to the gurney or the coffin.. your hands in the coffin.. fuck

i want to hear your voice. i miss i cant remember it. i wish i had it recorded
i want to read your letters but just seeing your handwriting kills me. your word you wrote like you spoke and i can imagine you saying it but i cant hear your fucking voice... fuck
i miss you i am dying.. your not gone fuck