Fleeting Emotions

I am fine. I am good. These are the words that come flying out of my mouth everyday. Wake up push it away. Compress the pain. I put on a mask and start the show. Then it creeps up. The pain the reality that she is gone! I think "oh my god how could this be real". I push it down the wave of sadness is gone again but for how long. Every thing I think and feel is temporary.Happiness,anger,sadness come on fast and leave in a flash. I feel lost and floaty like I'm always confused. I don't remember who I am. Who I am was always so wrapped up in her! My sisters and I keep saying we feel broken. I guess that the only way to describe our selves after our world was shattered.
I miss you so much mama I love you!