Blog virginity lol

So my therapist said I should journal because I am not dealing with my mom's death. Well I hate to write on anything that doesn't have spell check ;)I am a horrible speller. Oops I didn't check if this has spell check... whew it does! good hee hee

So I don't really know where to start. Part of me is just waiting for greys anatomy to get about 20 minutes in so I can watch commercial free on my DVR. I LOVE DVR!! 5 days ago I accidentally erased everything on our DVR. My bad hee hee. My girlfriend was so thrilled.. not! I erased a weeks worth of Days of our lives (you'd think it was the end of the world lol). Just playin she wasn't all that mad.

I guess I could introduce myself. I am Jessica a 28 yo Lesbian in Utah. I have been a mama's girl my whole life. On Nov 2ND my 51 yo Mom pasted away unexpectedly and still without cause! Everyone around me stood back and waited for my to crumble and fall apart. Which I did in small pieces for short amounts of time and mostly with my girlfriend. I guess everyone expected me to be worse off (myself included). Now it is 11 weeks later and it is just starting to sink in and denial is fading. I am still okay tho.

I plan to end most of my blogs with a mama thought. I think it makes sense because I always wonder what she'd be saying about the things I do and say.

MAMA THOUGHT: mama would like this and she would have giggled at the spelling thing. Love you mama